Ocram’s Blog

from £500… :think:

Unfortunately it’s cheaper to go practically anywhere else in Europe.

I could be fairly sure that nobody that I knew or cared about read this.

But, due to a genius idea I had a while back, I know that is (potentially) no longer the case. Well, that and there have always been things that I’ve avoided posting out of some paranoid idea that somebody would care enough about me to actively try and find this.

So, I’ve decided to go ‘anonymous’… basically anything I’ve ever wanted to post here but for whatever reason haven’t, will now go there (wherever there ends up being. :P )

So… any suggestions for a domain name? :rolleyes:

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it’s the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life’s temporary)
After we’re gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I’m wrong (but I can’t help believing)
I’m so lost
I’m barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It’s too late
To save me
You’re too late
You’re too late

You’re cold with disappointment
While I’m drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I’m sick with apprehension
I’m crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it’s the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life’s temporary)
After we’re gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I’m wrong (but I can’t help believing)

What was the point of this? I have no idea. :huh:

Anyway… the new Linkin Park and Within Temptation albums are is released next month. ^_^ Nothing in April that I can see though. :hmm:

I wish I had known not learning Norwegian would come back to haunt me. :rolleyes:

It’s now 5 AM, and it’s gone technically snowing to lightly snowing… it’s only a couple of centimetres though… you can still do better! :P

It’s now 3 AM, and I guess it starting snowing while I was outside, although in a ‘technically it’s snowing’ kind of way.

I was promised 15 cm of snow, and I want my 15 cm of snow, damn it!

is the happiest it’s been for a long time. :P

I now have the urge to add a passport to the list of things I want to get. :think:

I hadn’t killed that fish.

Well, that and I wish I could have got some sleep last night. I feel like shit right now… :ermm:

This is the second night in 10 days that I’ve gone without sleep… the first time it wasn’t so bad, I wasn’t working the following Monday so at least I could sleep the following day, but to not sleep for 24 hours and then have to work for 10 hours… it isn’t fun, to say the least. :hmm:

As there is no readily available (and affordable) source of caffeine without sugar (I hate coffee), I have to choose between becoming increasingly tired during the day, an increasing short (decreasing? :rolleyes:) attention span, a very short temper (the smallest things completely piss you off, not a very good thing when you have to work with people all day ), and after about 30 hours it reaches a point where I start experiencing these… bizarre sensations in my head, not painful, but it starts affecting my vision in a weird way, and towards the end of the day forming a coherent sentence becomes a challenge (I guess there’s not that big of a change there then… :rolleyes:) … Or I can suffer through stomach pains all day until reaching the wonderful “sugar
crash”. Not really a wonderful pair of choices. :rolleyes:

The stomach pains generally induce most of the above anyway, so I just decided to ‘tough it out’… I mean, it wouldn’t exactly be the first time… but at least before I knew why I couldn’t sleep… and while there wasn’t really anything I could do about it, I guess it’s kind of… reassuring, in a weird way, to know the reasons why. Or maybe I’m just strange. :think:

No hallucinations though… maybe I should avoid sleeping until I experience them? :P

In fact, I’m not sure why I decided to write this before going to bed… :huh:

I have no idea why I haven’t posted for a month, but here I am now. :P

I got the aforementioned job. 42½ hours/week though. :ermm: It’s a shame that MI5 doesn’t consider me good enough to defend my own country… but life goes on. :P

When I get paid I’ll look into taking my driving test again, and I’m not sure whether I’m going to try quitting smoking again… I guess it just seems pointless without an incentive. :hmm:

It’s off to Birmingham for a day and kind of a half’s training tomorrow… ~3 hours on the train there and about the same back on Thursday, and I still have no idea where it is that I’m staying. :rolleyes:

And a whole other bunch of stuff which I’m not sure about posting yet… :unsure:

I don’t know where or when yet, but it’s the fact that I have one that counts. ^_^

After 4 months of looking for work, somebody has finally given me an interview. I’m not sure whether that’s a good thing, but at least I’ve finally been given one, and it’s for something that I might actually enjoy doing.

Yay! ^_^