Ocram’s Blog

I hadn’t killed that fish.

Well, that and I wish I could have got some sleep last night. I feel like shit right now… :ermm:

This is the second night in 10 days that I’ve gone without sleep… the first time it wasn’t so bad, I wasn’t working the following Monday so at least I could sleep the following day, but to not sleep for 24 hours and then have to work for 10 hours… it isn’t fun, to say the least. :hmm:

As there is no readily available (and affordable) source of caffeine without sugar (I hate coffee), I have to choose between becoming increasingly tired during the day, an increasing short (decreasing? :rolleyes:) attention span, a very short temper (the smallest things completely piss you off, not a very good thing when you have to work with people all day ;)), and after about 30 hours it reaches a point where I start experiencing these… bizarre sensations in my head, not painful, but it starts affecting my vision in a weird way, and towards the end of the day forming a coherent sentence becomes a challenge (I guess there’s not that big of a change there then… :rolleyes:) … Or I can suffer through stomach pains all day until reaching the wonderful “sugar
crash”. Not really a wonderful pair of choices. :rolleyes:

The stomach pains generally induce most of the above anyway, so I just decided to ‘tough it out’… I mean, it wouldn’t exactly be the first time… but at least before I knew why I couldn’t sleep… and while there wasn’t really anything I could do about it, I guess it’s kind of… reassuring, in a weird way, to know the reasons why. Or maybe I’m just strange. :think:

No hallucinations though… maybe I should avoid sleeping until I experience them? :P

In fact, I’m not sure why I decided to write this before going to bed… :huh:

I have no idea why I haven’t posted for a month, but here I am now. :P

I got the aforementioned job. 42½ hours/week though. :ermm: It’s a shame that MI5 doesn’t consider me good enough to defend my own country… but life goes on. :P

When I get paid I’ll look into taking my driving test again, and I’m not sure whether I’m going to try quitting smoking again… I guess it just seems pointless without an incentive. :hmm:

It’s off to Birmingham for a day and kind of a half’s training tomorrow… ~3 hours on the train there and about the same back on Thursday, and I still have no idea where it is that I’m staying. :rolleyes:

And a whole other bunch of stuff which I’m not sure about posting yet… :unsure: