Ocram’s Blog

Pretty much sums up how I’m feeling right now.

I know it seems weird considering that this is what I was originally planning to do, and I could have understood if she had actually told me that… in fact, I was half expecting it, but for somebody who was ’so important’ to you it seems… common courtesy to actually say goodbye, instead of just ignoring me.

I just don’t understand how anybody could do this, especially somebody who said that they cared about me… who said that they didn’t want to hurt me… it makes me wonder exactly what else they didn’t mean…

I didn’t post this, but if anybody actually cares I had a last minute change of mind and decided that she was too important a friend to lose, and basically said that I’m only ever an e-mail away. Ok, so it didn’t sound particularly great, but I thought that it was the thought that counted.

I was considering sending the goodbye that I had written, to provide me with some closure I guess, but apparently I’ve deleted it and if it isn’t even going to be read then I’m not sure if it’s worth the effort to re-write it…

That I didn’t try…

the end. :unsure:

Last night, I wrote my goodbye. -_- There was just so much going on inside my head, that I needed to write it down…

Something about it doesn’t seem right though… there seems to be something missing, but I can’t think what. And to me the whole thing makes it seem like I don’t care, which really isn’t the case, I just don’t know how else to put it. -_-

I guess all that’s left now is to figure out whether it really is the right thing to do, but at the moment I really don’t see any other option…

And here the result of my boredom.

The script (VCD-db) is OK, maybe at some point in the future during a period of boredom I might improve it, but, for now, it works.