I don’t know if I can keep doing this to myself… :unsure:
This probably won’t make any sense to anyone, (if anyone actually reads this… ) but that’s because there is so much that I either don’t feel comfortable posting, or am too embarrassed to post. (aren’t they essentially the same thing? :huh:)
Anyway… I was hoping that maybe things would be easier this time round… but it’s been almost a month, and I’m feeling exactly as I did before, perhaps even worse.
Don’t get me wrong: I really, really don’t want to lose this friendship. But if I’m going to be feeling like this every day, I have to question whether it is really worth it. On the other hand, things weren’t exactly much better when I thought that I would never hear from her again.
On the third hand, (I’ve mutated recently :rolleyes:) maybe over time it would get easier… although that argument could really apply to both.
And my apparent penchant for unanswerable (or, perhaps more accurately, unaskable) questions really doesn’t help things either. :hmm:
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